Feeling Inadequate

  So in case you all did not know I am really hard on myself sometimes.  I am even harder on myself if someone points out my weaknesses.  This last week has been really hard because I have felt like I am not as good as I should be.  Not that I have done anything bad but I feel like I have a lot to work on and need to become a stronger person.  A lot of it comes from Nik being gone and becoming such a stronger person. I worry about him becoming this great person and I am still just me.  I know that I am a good person, but I want to be a great person.  I know a lot of it is in my dumb head, but it is hard to get rid of thoughts of feeling inadequate.  I am trying to be better and wanting to be the best person I can be.  I am hoping to get rid of these doubts by turning to the Lord.  I know that he can help me to understand and will help me grow.  I feel so lucky though at the same time.  Nik's aunt asked me to help her and go to Jerusalem with her at the end of the year.  I have been praying and pondering about it and know that Heavenly Father wants me to be able to have this great opportunity.  So hopefully everything will all work out.  I think that it will be so incredible to walk where our Savior walked and see all the places that are so sacred to us.  I am so grateful to know that I can turn to my Heavenly Father when I am feeling down.  What a powerful thing it is to know that he can help us through anything.... even if it is just self doubt! The nice thing to know is that the Lord will always be there and that he will continue to bless us.  I am looking forward to what will come and know that if I continue to become stronger that my testimony will also grow.  I just feel so blessed and know that the Lord will help me through this if I just ask!